reflections

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2009-12-28T10:42:00.000-08:00

Hey ho,

So I’m sitting in my room in Riyadh literally dying of boredom I go and start reading through my blog. It’s crazy I feel as if I don’t even know that girl, care free and worrying about trivial things. That is no longer my life. I live with a constant knot in my stomach, I wake up do whatever it is I have to do that day, shop, eat, smile, laugh and this god damn pain NEVER goes. When I just sit still and stop for a second I am cruelly reminded of my loss. Reminded that no matter what I do and how happy I’m supposed to be my little girl is dead and gone, buried in shitty depressive England. I’m never going to be able to sit down and have a ridiculous conversation with her , dance with her or read to her again. I was her big sister I used to watch over her, spoil her and love her. This is what I am constantly reminded of every day an endless list of things past and a future that I took for granted that I will now never have.

15 days, 19hours and 27 seconds since my last post

2008-09-28T22:36:00.000-07:00

Hectic: Characterized by intense activity, confusion, or haste

marked by intense agitation or emotion.

Yeeeeah, I’ll go with the second. Although, both definitions would sum up my week perfectly. Making so many changes in your life in just one week should have a medicine prescribed for it. God your meeting your new flat mates, meeting new friends, enrolling for your classes, signing up for societies and much more.

So forgive me for not posting but I have been crazy busy, I’m kinda settling in to uni now. My flatmates are great, lol and not dirty (added bonus) we share two bathrooms, a kitchen and a sitting room area. We have so much fun together, there are six of us in my flat two guys and four girls, Jay, Amelia, Tori, Tom and Alice. Alice is my favourite she’s an absolute darling we hang out quite alot. There are five other flats in our block which is B block and the people although I haven’t met all of them seem nice too. Ashleigh who was in my class in college last year is in the flat above mine so that’s really great at least I knew I had him there before I came, and I hung out in his flat on Friday with Tori and some of his flatmates it was fun.

I’ve been coming home these past two weekends because I’ve really missed my family, also I haven’t been sleeping that well at uni, it really takes me time to get used to new settings. I’m probably going to try and stay down in Oxford this weekend though for the first time also we have planned to go ice skating on Saturday so that should be an additional incentive.

All in all it has been a good two weeks so far, not great but good I hope that it carries on going up from here and my university experience is as great as people make it out to be. Everyone says that I should cherish these moments because its going to be gone before I know it. I’ll look back and all I will have is the memories that I made, its kinda hard to cherish the moment while you’re in it but I’ll try.

7ikmat el-post: As happens sometimes a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment. And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment. And then the moment was gone.

Thats when it all changed!!!

2008-09-13T05:48:00.000-07:00

Wow so this is it I'm leaving tommorow, should have been today but I ajiled it cuz I wanted to have a day with my whole family when we weren't rushing off to school and work.

Well I've almost finished packing I've got all my papers and certificates in order

I got a really cute plant. I think that I'm gonna do my dorm room in hot pink.

My little sisters are asking me for my things like I'm going away and never coming back, my room, my shoes, my earings, the answer to all these have been HELL NO. I don't care if I'm not there my bedroom stays empty for when I come down. I'm probably gonna feel bad once I'm there and let them sleep in it though.

Well will tell everyone how its going when I get to Oxford and have met my room mates *pray that they are clean, pray that the are clean*

This really feels like that definitive moment when you look back years later and say thats when it all changed, the first day of the rest of my life.

and I am FREAKED OUT!!!!!

7ikmat el-post: The future belongs to those who give the next generation reason for hope.

Its all part of the plan

2008-09-08T03:47:00.001-07:00

So I went to see the dark knight again this Thursday and i have every intention of going to watch it on IMAX again before I go away to uni. That movie is beyond amazing, I’m just in shock every time at how incredible Heath Ledger was a joker (he HAS to win that Oscar) it was way better watching it this time cuz I knew what was gonna happen so I could just sit back and revel in the awesomeness that is Heath Ledger.

So five days left and I’m thinking of all the things that I’ve gotta do:
1. Open a student account.
2. Fix my finances cuz I kinda bunched that up.
3. By pots and pans and a rug for my room.
4. Buy my 16-25 student railcard that gives me 1/3 of train fees.
5. Call Ash to see how he’s gonna get his stuff to me.
6. Buy presents for my family and leave them somewhere where they won’t find it until I’ve gone.
7. Call the school of health and social care at uni and tell them to SEND ME MY GODDAMN BOOK LIST ALREADY.

I bet you loads of other small stuff are gonna come up so I better try and do at least half of those things by tomorrow.

Uggh so Nadal lost the semi-finals of the US open to none other than Murray, I don’t have anything against Murray personally its just the stupid British people, they give me a bloody earache, over Murray this and Murray that, hes so incredible he’s gonna be world number one soon. Then Murray can act like a right old good for nothing brat when the game isn’t going his way. Nadal on the other hand has excellent sportsmanship and is a complete gentleman, he is also a pretty magnificent player. That Wimbledon final between him and Federer was nothing short of epic and is something I will cherish for a very long time. So fingers crossed that Federer beats Murray, so I won’t be subjected to stupid British ranting every time I turn on the TV or radio.

God!!! I went down to Cambridge yesterday and saw Asma. We couldn’t believe it has been a year, we were just sitting there 8ar8ring like I had just seen her a few days ago, that’s the beauty of the internet, it’s hard to lose contact with your friends. Anyways Oxford is close to Cambridge so the good thing is that I’ll be seeing her ALOT this year inshallah. She also gave me some good tips for uni. I am addicted to e-bay because of above said person, that place is heavenly I found the cutest leather gloves in the world on that site.

Anyways I want to give a shout to my darling Aliyah wishing her a very happy 22nd birthday, hope u had a great one. I love you.

7ikamt el-post: Be not afraid of life. Believe that life is worth living, and your belief will help create the fact.

For the last time

2008-09-03T05:57:00.000-07:00

So I’m finally back and this time I swear it will be for good. I’ve missed blogging sometime things happen (or don’t for that matter) and I really feel that I need to vent about it.My blog as my sanctuary I can say exactly what is going on in this head of mine without being judged about it in anyway. I have become quite an angry person. I feel now that I’m always pissed off with my family my mum and dad get the brunt of that, I disagree with them way too much to be healthy and then that escalates into a big fight and I hear myself saying things that I would never have said a year ago. Being rude, disagreeable, bratty and uncooperative is NOT me, I feel like I’ve lost myself this past year and I’m gonna do something about it.

So anyways enough with my depressing rant, well another reason that I haven’t been blogging is because I haven’t had squat to blog about. I swear this has got to have been the most boring, friendless and unproductive year of my entire life, I say before comment with a pinch of salt. So we moved house three times (four if you count KSA) and we have finally bought a house and feel kinda settled in. I’ve almost finished fixing my bedroom.

Also

I’M GOING AWAY TO UNI IN 10 DAYS TIME. WOOOOOOOOT. I AM SOOO EXCITED I’M GONNA BE LIVING IN DORMS AND ALL THAT COMES WITH IT, end of caps cuz I’m kinda pissed that I didn’t get my ensuite bathroom, I made ensuite my first three choices on my accommodation but they put me with shared bathroom. Anyways it isn’t all bad I’m just gonna have to gather my fellow flat mates and do some bathroom talking especially to the boys. Girls are usually clean or even if they aren’t can be shamed into being clean but guys noooot so much. We’ll see i can always transfer to different halls if it gets to be a problem. I’m also really happy cuz I’m gonna be living in the beautiful city of Oxford which in my opinion is one of the best cities to be a student in.

I’m gonna miss my family terribly especially Hawwa, that’s really gonna suck but I guess we can’t be attached to each other’s hips our entire life.

So I think that sums up my first post will be back with more tantalising tales of my oh so succulent life.

Ramadan Kareem my lovelies.

7ikmat el-post: To be nobody but yourself, in a world which is doing its best, day and night, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle, which any human being can fight and never stop fighting

Comeback

2007-10-29T19:10:00.000-07:00

Okaaay!

Where to start? I know I have been around like zilch. I could come up with a zillion lame excuses why that is. "I'm not adjusting well ", "I'm suffering from culture shock", "I miss my dad terribly."

Blah, blah, blah (I told you they were lame.)

The truth is I've changed ALOT since I've come here. All the things that I used to enjoy doing don't give me a buzz anymore. I used to adore reading, I LOVED writing my endevours in my blog. Now my life is really so whatever kinda thing. (See how articulate I'm being a new bonus to my transformation.)

I'm young and my spark is dying.

I've started colleage which is a cool experience. I've made some hang out buddies who all happen to be guys (don't ask, one particular story I'm not going to go into on my blog). The head of our course is completly bonk in the head, very, very cool but nutty. Shes one of those purple haired, pearcing in the lower lip, crazy about smoking, sex and drinking kind of people. She actually went into her sex life in the middle of our anatomy and physiology lesson (I really didn't want to know many of the things she told us.) After we had finished class one evening she was trying to get us to come down to the pub and have some drinks with her. I declined, going to the pub and getting drunk is very high on my 'things I hope and pray to never to do' list, a few kids in my class did go with her though. Not to mention our 15 minute breaks were she and a few people in my class go and come back smelling very strongly of fags.

Nothing much has been going on in my collage life other than assignments I have three which all need to be done, asap. Which I am leaving till the very last minute as usual. Me and Hawwa have decided to go to the city center on friday. I haven't got any classes that day. I wanna go and see star dust, not to mention some kick ass Chinese restaurant i smelt there (yeah smelling was as good as it got cuz the place was jam packed, friday everyone is at school and work so, yeah baby.)

Anyway tata for now. I'm gonna try and write regularly now try and get some old Aya back into me. Cuz as much as I didn't think so before, I kinda liked who I was.

7ikmat el-post: Do not let your fire go out, sparked by the irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not quite, the not yet, the not at all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have not been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists. It is real. It is possible. It is yours.

And so the story goes...

2007-07-28T13:14:00.000-07:00

So i know i have completely neglected my blog. For some reason after you had to sign in with your gmail account it stopped working for me.

I feel as if I'm a different person since my last post. My family have moved back to UK for good. I know this might sound ungrateful but I really don't like it here. I miss KSA more than I can say, I ache for my friends you know even if you don't always see them, the comfort of them just being there, 5, 10, 20 minutes away. The comfort of knowing people that have loved you and know you so well are so close to you and you can turn to them. I consider that my whole life was in Saudi I was a kid when i left London. Everything that ever mattered in my life happened in KSA. I feel so lost right now, I sleep half my day away and everyone that knows me knows i don't sleep alot. Walla I'm on msn speaking to all those people that mean so much to me, that are cities and countries apart (and I hate msn). Knowing that it will never be the same again. I'm so immature I know that, as far as standards here I'm downright spoilt. It was ok being that way in Saudi, to be completely honest I liked it. I've got to change so much here and that's probably why I feel so lost. It's a different life, a different me a new chapter.

I close the first chapter of my life a new one begins, I hope its as filling and beautiful as the last.

I dedicate this post to Asma, Taqwa and Nahla three people that have filled my last chapter profoundly. I love you all.

7ikmat al-post: As we strain to grasp the things we desire, the things we think will make our lives better: Money, Popularity, Fame...we ignore what truly matters - the simple things: like Friendship, Family, Love. The things we probably already had.

testing

2007-05-09T12:59:00.000-07:00

Please work, oooooof.

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2007-03-25T06:05:00.001-07:00

tesssttt

To all those people.

2007-01-01T21:21:00.000-08:00

They are many great people in this world, people that will always be remembered. Most of these individuals have made a difference in this world for better or for worse. History will always remember them they will always be a part of people thoughts. They are also a different set of people, quite, good, caring ones. When they die there loved ones will be the ones to remember them and after generations and generations even they are forgotten. The set of people that I wish to salute are the people that you don't even know. Strangers that come into your life for a short while and disappear and you never meet them again, but they ALWAYS stay locked in your memory, they make you smile when you remember them. What did these strangers do? Something heroic? Something selfless? For some it may be so, but for me the strangers that walked into my life were ordinary people that didn't do anything amazing, but will always be special to me:

The lady when I was praying eid salat and I forgot my mat and was feeling terribly cold and didn't have anywhere to sit, let me come and share her mat with her. After when it was time to leave she gave me her mat to keep and it was a big beautiful mat. Why did she do that? Just so I could remember her. And I will always.

The guy from Cardiff when I was talking to him about my uni prospectus and he was so helpful. Then he asked me how old I was and instead of making me feel bad about my age (which the rest had somehow managed to do) he bowed to me in the sweetest way and said milady.

Or the lady that I talked to before my British council exams, that told me that she loved my hair and that I should always keep it like this because it makes me different she told me that it was my heritage and I should be proud.

I salute you all.

So my new years resolutions are:

I want to do random kindness to people. If I see someone that needs some help that I can give I'm not gonna ignore, I'll try to help in the best way I could. And if I know that something will make someone's day or just bring a smile to their face then I'll try my best to do it. If I don't become famous and am not remembered throughout history. Then I want to remember kindly in the hearts of the many who know me and the few who don't.

I'm also gonna be more on ball with my studies and not leave everything to the last moment as I have done now. When I finish these exams Inshallah on Jan 24th, I'll take a week of then ask my mom to blast me through C3.

I have to stop blogging until after my exams, Allah yhdikum wa bas, you people have got me addicted instead of cell organelles and trigonometry soaking up my brain cells. I'm spending to much time reading taqo's recommendation escapades, moch's b-day party, bella's sexiest people's list and farahs green shoe adventures not to mention ren's ten things that he THINKS we don't know about him.

I also want to put a 7ikmat al- post at the end of every post. So even if what I write is a bunch of incoherent rubbish at least you will leave my blog with some type of fa2da.

So I'm gonna miss my family, don't have to much fun without me, until the 24th…

ace bows dramatically and exits.

7ikmat al-post: The best thing a father can do for his children is love their mother.

9ad8t thuma 9ada8t thuma 9da8t.

And so it begins

2006-12-22T12:20:00.000-08:00

I've realized as time goes by that I kid myself into believing many things that just aren't true, for example:
I was m9di8a that I was over my Harry Potter mania. As in I still love it and read the books and all and will read the seventh when it comes out. But I will not get into a frenzy when I hear the new title, sms every single one of my friends the minute I found out, scream the house down (shriek like a banshee more like it) and be a tad close to tears when I knew the title. 5alas that was looong time ago (two years to be precise) I was over all that and would just be happy that I could read the last book. This morning 7awwa went online and I'm sitting in the library with her studying statistics ila she goes:

"Title for book seven OUT!!!! Harry Potter and the deathly hallows!!!"

I did all of the above with much more vengeance than I ever remembered before. Then my sis and I called my two brothers and sisters and told them and the whole house went into a hysteria, my mum was there and didn't quite get what was going on probably cuz I shrieked it (you would have to be a hp fan to have understood what I said) when she realized what was going on she said:
Mum:" This is the last book"
Me: "yes, yes, yes" (hugging my sister)
Mum: "Thank god for that"
Lol I can kind of sympathies with her having a house full of Harry Potter maniacs and you not remotely one must get kind of annoying after a while.

I had bio tuition at 1 o'clock and I had go to my tutor's house my friend Sara who is also a crazy hp fan was there. I didn't get to tell her before the lesson started and I swear to god I tried to keep it in until we finished but it kinda just came out half way through the lesson. 7aram wallah the rest of the lesson was spent in her whispering: 'Have any clues come out? How many chapters? How many pages? Aya I wanna cry but I don't want them to see.'

My tutor who is the sweetest guy in the world was like:
"Oh you're talking about Mrs. Potter she was on TV today"
Guy in our group:
"Sir believe it or not they are talking about fiction here, Harry Potter!"

Anyway the rest of my day was spent sleeping and discussing what might happen in the book and looking up clues, this had to come bang in the middle of my crazy studying period. Y3niy how am I gonna go to all my forums and join in discussions, read all my hp books again and spend hours on end talking with my sisters about all the rumors we've each come up with or heard, how? I so can feel what happened two years ago is all gonna begin again exams or no exams.

I've just come to write this as my mum 6la3tniy min my sisters room 3'9ban 3niy and thinks I've gone to bed. But I can't sleep, talk about kidding myself bi8uwa.

(I realise that this post is a bit incoherent, bas m3lish my mind is still a jumble)

tagged by the fashion bella!!!

2006-12-14T21:40:00.000-08:00

1.- If I were a fruit I'd be... Granny smith apples
2.- If I were a colour I'd be... Shocking pink with a hint of gold
3.- If I were an animal I'd be... A tiger
4.- If I were a domestic appliance I'd be... An icecream maker
5.- If I were a book I'd be... pride and the prejudice
6.- If I were a clothing item I'd be... A gown
7.- If I were a jewel / stone I'd be... An Emerald
8.- If I were an object I'd be... Big ben
9.- If I were a car I'd be... I really don't know
10.- If I were an element I'd be... Krypton:p.
11.- If I were a tree I'd be... A blossom tree (like in last samurai)
12.- If I were a drink I'd be... A mocha (sorry bout that mocha, stole ur drink, but it can have more than one love right?)
13.- If I were an ice cream flavor I'd be... A '3mla8' cookies and cream with pralines and cream
14.- If I were a person I'd be... Angelina Jolie
15.- If I were a planet I'd be... Saturn
16.- If I were an insect I'd be... A beetle
17.- If I were a form of public transport I'd be... A london black taxi
18.- If I were a song I'd be... Love is blind by~ i seriously forgot her name.
19.- If I were a movie I'd be... The count of Monto Cristo
20.- If I were a season I'd be... Spring
21.- If I were a flower I'd be... A passion flower
22.- If I were a job I'd be... A movie director! Ooooh ya layt wa bas.
23.- If I were a cartoon I'd be... Mulan
24.- If I were a place I'd be... Dominica
25.- If I were a gift I'd be... A baby
26.- If I were a memory I'd be... The most long lived, in a nice way though
27.- If I were a city I'd be...LONDON!!!!
28.- If I were a sense I'd be... Touch
29.- If I were a game I'd be... Twister
30.- If I were a candy I'd be... Pear drops
31.- If I were a time of the day I'd be... thuhr (just sleepy lazy time)
32.- If I were an invention I'd be... An i pod
33.- If I were a body-part I'd be... My eyes :p
34.- If I were a country I'd be... China
35.- If I were a flavor I'd be... Cinnamon and spice.
36.- If I were a sport I'd be... Dancing (bella i wanna be dancing too)
37.- If I were a smell I'd be... Jamaican mist (my trademark scent)
38.- If I were a subject I'd be... Maths (don't look at me like that)
39.- If I were a flag I'd be...Jamaicas, now that is a HOT!!! flag. And NO i don't have a thing for Jamaicans
40.- If I were a building I'd be.... The british parliament (I'm short what do u want mamlaka?)
41.- If I were a month I'd be... September
42.- If I were a perfume I'd be... Hot
43.- If I were a gummy candy I'd be... Cola bottles
44.- No question ... Ummm no.
45.- If I were a toy I'd be... A teddy bear
46.- If I were a textile / fabric I'd be... Silk.
47.- If I were a shape I'd be... A chinese shape (i made it a shape ok)
48.- If I were an answer I'd be... Kindness
49.- If I were a store I'd be... A shop that sell NICE leg warmers.
50.- If I were a word I'd be... Complete

I tag..... Taqo, foxyah, foof and rawr

No comment on how belated this tag is.
Thank you.

30 days have september...

2006-12-09T22:03:00.000-08:00

"...april, june and november all the rest have 31 except february alone which has 28 days clear and 29 in each leap year."

My dad taught me this song when i was in first grade, one wet rainy day in London on the way to school. Now its coming back to haunt me, no prizes for guessing why?

My exams start on the 10 of jan which gives me exactly 31 days till my first exam. I'm sorry for not blogging but i haven't been online for two weeks and when i say haven't been online i mean it bi kul ma3nat al kilma, i.e i haven't pressed 'connect to' in two weeks. I study for hours on end then wake up at two in the morning with a terrible jolt and start banging my head against my books.

"Several ribosomes can attach to an mRNA strand simultaneously, forming polysomes, speeding up polypeptide chain formation, It has been observed that ribosomes can initiate protein synthesis many times on the same mRNA strand, so that a great deal of protein can be produced from one mRNA molecule"

Do i give a shit. And all they had to say was:

"Ribosomes can bulid up proteins many times using the same mRNA strand"

Finished end of story why all the crap about polysomes and polypeptide formation. This is biology by the way to anyone who is interested.

And so ends my rant, back to studying and not pressing the 'connect to' for a month.

My judgement day is exactly a month away and NO i am not ready.

tagged by the dot.

2006-11-18T03:54:00.000-08:00

Okay I know this taken has taken forever, the problem was I didn't know what to draw then on Wednesday the subject came up twice: Where do you see yourself ten/ five years from now. I'm not even gonna go into what my friends thought I would be doing five years from now, talk about having no faith in a body, jeez. So anyways that’s what I drew, what I hope to have achieved in that time.

That funny box contraption believe it or not is a car and that the hospital/office I work in as a occupational therapist, and the box thing to my left is supposed to be a house. Okay dot this is what you get when you try to bring out the creativity in a girl that doesn't have a clue, I warned you that I could not draw if my life depended on it. You owe me big time.

What about all of you guys, where do you see yourself ten years from now?

Confrontations.

2006-11-03T04:06:00.000-08:00

I was at my close friend's house on Wednesday. She had a get together of a few classmates. I not quite sure how it started but one of the girls brought up a topic about some girl in her uni, bad news for her is that my very very outspoken sister happened to be there:

Her: Yeah that girl you should see her! She has this funny hairstyle and she's a 3bda (a slave).
My sis: what do u mean 3bda?

The girl looked like she had swallowed a lemon; my sis and I knew perfectly well that she is talking about someone with dark skin. I guess cuz we don't go to Arabic school anymore you don't really hear that thing a lot, there are not that many Saudi girls in my school and the ones that are there are way to open minded to say that kind of thing especially in front of a black person, HELLO.

My sis: Exactly what do u mean by the term 3bda? 3bda means a slave and I don't think its right to call people slaves or are you saying that because she's black?
Girl: No I didn't mean it like that, she is a dawsreya and they were actually slaves for the princes.
My sis: Yeah but they are not slaves anymore, mara 7aram 3laykiy to call her a 3bda do u know that?
There was this embarrassed silence and everyone was looking everywhere except for at each other, excluding my sis who was staring at the girl she was talking to look she was going to kill her.
Girl: they are still slaves now, loads kman. There was this prince that had a daughter with a slave and he didn't own up to her. Then when her cousin grew up he went and married her so her father would have to own up and he did.
My sis: That's good but don't call people 3bda again its just wrong.

Whatever I know that, that bull about there being loads of slaves in Saudi Arabia is a bunch of crap she was trying to justify her comment before, I mean who the hell would stay a slave in the time and age we live in.

You know what amazed most about this conversation wasn't the fact that she referred to the girl as 3bda I've lived in this country for 10 years. It's the fact that she was so awkward when my sister asked her what she meant by the term 3bda. All these years I took it for granted that they used to say those stupid racist thing about Sudanis, Pakistanis and Indonesians out of shear ignorance. I can now tell that innocence is soooo overrated, they know exactly what they are doing and saying.

I've always told my sis that a career in medicine is wasting her talents at being I'm-so-gonna-say-what-i-think-to hell-with-u attitude, politics is a much more fitting profession, guess she'll realize sooner or later.

She also got into another fight with another girl (i swear i don't know, what she smoked before we went there, she was in a mood) about girls here not getting treated the same as their brothers and how people here are so sexist.

But thats a whole nother story.

For a special someone.

2006-10-26T10:31:00.000-07:00

Your back is up against a wall. You have no where to turn no one to lean on. And the more you try the worst the situation gets. Then you begin to wonder and second guess yourself. Society made you believe that this is part your fault, you should have been strong enough, good enough brave enough.

To do what?

You're confused by what you should do and what your heart tells you is right. And the more you listen to your heart you realise it was no fault of yours or your sisters. She was being and ordinary teenager. Met a guy online, started talking to him and believed he was going to marry her. How was she to know he would turn out to be scum? Using her like he pleases because he knows he can, the same society that condemns her gives him the power to do what he wants, he knows he has her under his thumb. She is not to blame neither are you. The culprit is society making something innocent into a crime. Your mother, brother and father because of if they were different your back wouldn't be up against a wall. If their daughter meant more to them then people you would have someone to lean on. They are not strong enough to do what's right, good enough to forgive and brave enough to forget their so called honour and care about their flesh and blood.
You're the brave one the strong one the good one. You have no one to turn to so do what's right and god will look after you and yours.

I watch and know more than you think and I love and respect you for it.

For all those special someone's.

tagged by the 63sahlicious™ taqo.

2006-10-22T02:20:00.000-07:00

Ok i know this is late but i always had the intention of doing it but one thing kept on leading to another.

Last birthday? I turned 21 (just shut up ok)
Last meal? Shwarma for su7ur two actually.
Last spending splurge? My d&g mobile (yes people my wish list came true)
Last time you cried? ummm i was watching v for vendetta.
Last career? Teaching my two subjects for the whole summer.
Last website visited? Taqo's blog.
Last person you spoke to? Our helper.
Last song you listened to? Unfaithful.
Last book you read? The artic incident artemis fowl (been looking for that book for two years and taqo just comes and gives it to me two days ago, she had it all this time and i was blaming Diabz, sorry)
Last TV show watched? Umm i haven't been watching tv for a few weeks so roots must be it.
Last person you IM’d? Kadooj.
Last word you said? Yeah, yeah (i know i'm so interesting, bas what do u say to ur little sis when shes pointing to pictures of a lion and asking u if its Simba and you are trying to do ur tag?)

I tag...... umm everyone has been tagged right as i took soooooo long to do it myself.

fasting person syndrome (I'm sure it must be some kind of disorder)

2006-10-16T19:45:00.000-07:00

Ok my week turned out way better than I thought it would. We only had one quiz out of the three promised. We had to beg the bio teacher out of that one, bas I have a feeling she couldn't be bothered either the last lesson the last day of school come on! Then my friends and I ditched one stat lesson actually only two girls went. The stat teacher marked us all as absent even though we ran straight past her when she was on the way to our lesson, thank god for small favors, but I don't know how you actually missed three quarters of your class running past you, I'm not complaining anyhow. I went to her the next day and told her I'm dropping stat at school and doing it at home, she was rather nice about it and told me if I needed help to come to her. A gave her a winning smile and told her 3la 3yniy. The iftar on a good note was sooo much fun, I haven't laughed so much for a long time. If you want fun in this country you're all alone mate the government see no profit in it for themselves, so it was one of those rare times when we dealt with that problem.

We were being extremely greedy at the start you know that fasting persons thing when u believe you can conquer the world, but after you break your fast and eat a few things you realize that u can't eat half of what you took. Well yeah that kinda happened to us.

We still had loads and loads of food when we finished, but hey we have a conscience we put every thing we couldn't eat straight back and felt bad about taking all that food in the first place. All the other tables had ordinary amounts of food each person with there own plate we had serving plates full and two big boxes of pizza, but in our defense I'm sure no one had been as hungry as us, we are growing girls la2 tlumuna.

Of school, bad stat teachers and other stories

2006-10-06T12:29:00.000-07:00

Next week is gonna be hectic. I have two bio quizzes, an iftar in school and I have to think of a nice way of telling the statistics teacher that I'm dropping stats in school and doing it at home cuz I don't understand a word that she says in class, really, shes that bad.

I know some of u are going wtf? Didn't this girl graduate last year? Yes I did graduate from Arabic school. But I wanted to enhance my knowledge and expand my already saturated brain. My thirst for information couldn't be quenched so I decided to go back to school to...

...alright fast forward the crap.

The truth be told, I've gone to English school to finish of my a-levels, I tried to do it in thalith last year but it was too much. I was thinking of using my Arabic certificate to go into occupational therapy in UK, but a friend of mine just went back to England with her's and was discriminated against and is now wasting two years of her life doing an access course to get into uni. So as I'm staying her waiting for my sis anyway, I'm going to do my A-levels inshallah as not to waste more time, than I have already. I was gonna stay at home and do it bas I tried it for a week and almost died of boredom. Anyway I know it will be better doing it at school, cuz I'll have monthly's and end of semester exams which I'll have to study for. Aaaaand I'm gonna get another graduation party, hahaha, how cool is that.

So far I really like my new school. It's everything that my old school wasn't. The teachers are nice and very helpful. The girls are sweethearts and I've made some really wonderful friends in the short time I've been there. And we are given proper space to have some fun and are treated properly and not like a bunch of caged up animals.It is also not full of hypocritical bitches, who made my life miserable under the pretence of being just and religious.And you get extra privileges being a level, we can come to school late and leave if we don't have lessons and we get to do a lot of things all we have to do is say the magic word (a-levels) and you don't have to worry about doorman or sectaries or the headmistress. The poor SAT girls are always getting put back in class when they try to ditch.

School just won't let go of me, after this year i'm gonna treat it as a terrible swear word, say it and you get your mouth washed out.

Yes I am serious.

The Way I See It.

2006-10-02T06:05:00.000-07:00

It's official, I just enrolled for my A-levels my social life is gonna go into the minus figures now for the next few months. Not only am I doing A-levels which need ALOT of commitment I'm doing the syllabus that takes two years in one. But hey this is my passport to getting a life. Y3niy if I don't do well in these exams, England and any chance of finding my long lost life goes bye, bye. So if it means studying for 15 hours a day, hardly seeing my friends for the next few months, not going to any blogger meet ups *sigh* and having to wear glasses when I'm finished, than I shall do it inshallah. It really isn't a big price to pay to find my life again. The view from my window looks pretty bleak at the moment but I shall do it.

So help me God.

Calling all LOTR fans!

2006-09-23T10:04:00.000-07:00

Ramdan kareem all. Ta8bal Allah mena wa menkum 9ali7 al a3mal. Well its been a good day of fasting alhamduliallah, hope it will be a good ramadan.

On a completley unrealted topic, I saw the trailer for eragon, ok people either this movie is gonna be the bomb or absolute crap, no middle mark here. I read the books and loved them especially the second 'Eldest' . You guys have to check out this trailer and na9iyha from me read the books before the movie comes out which is december the 15. Imagine the boy Christopher was 15 when he wrote it can someone say kash5a a liitle louder. I think he is 21 or 22 now. The third book is coming out next year can't wait. Check out the tralier here it looks good, 9ah? If your a lord of the rings fan then you will love eragon, they are so alike sometimes its uncanny.

Kidos

2006-09-20T21:34:00.000-07:00

Is it just me or have children changed drastically in the past ten years, I mean looking at my little sisters and the things they do and say, makes you go wow. Like my 6 year old sister has this thing of i5tbing herself to 3yal al nas. I mean she's been engaged and unengaged more times than most grown people would ever be in their life. Her latest prospective husband is this cute little German boy that comes to our house. The poor kid didn't know what hit him and Bilques, comes running downstairs telling my mum

"Abdullah said he wants to marry me". Then he comes chasing her telling my mum,

"No she wants to marry me".

Mushkila we all know 7rakat7a so we knew it was her and not him that must have brought the subject up. He then went home and told his mum and dad that Bilques wants to marry him and his dad, who thought the whole thing hilarious, came and told my dad, god I was so embarrassed when my dad came and told us.

My two little sisters, Abdullah and his big bro, Hamza were all sitting in the kitchen eating.

My 9 year old sister: I'm never getting married

Hamza:But you have to get married to get kids

Sis: No I'm never getting married.

Abdullah: You don't have to get married to get kids, whats wrong with u Hamza?

Bilques: You don't?

Sis: Exactly I don't have to get married. I can just have my kids. Hamza then went into a big rant about why she should get married and all the pros that were in the bargain.

Well I didn't ask them, how you get kids cuz either they don't know and I don't wannna spark there curiosity there is also a possibility that they have an idea and I'd rather not know if that is the case. I found out how babies were made when I was 10, I was watching a movie that I wasn't supposed to be watching (obviously) and the hero starting having sex with thsi lady he had met in a nightclub. I was in shock for a while and NO WAY would you find me discussing it happily with my two friends over a cup of juice.

Also on the first day of school my two sisters came back home telling us how a car full of guys chased them almost until they got home. I tried to explain to them, that shabab had not reached that level of desperation to chase a 9 and 6 year old, but till this day they are positive they were the reason they were chased, they were chasing them cuz my friends was in our car not 3shan7um.

I was sitting online today and my dad was in the room reading, my little sister enters and starts going.

“Bosoms,bosoooms” ya3niy she was shouting it. I was staring at her, my dad just carried on reading like he couldn’t hear anything. Its not something my family are eating is it?

So ends my muse.

Oh layt al shbab t3wdo yawman.

Whatever.

2006-09-13T01:38:00.000-07:00

Hello all, my blog is being turned into an billboard, this has nothing to do with me, bas Diabz is fathya for a whole term and it seems like it is getting to her already, so she vents it out on me as usuall. She wants a job, and to put it in her eloquent words:

"SOMEONE FIND DIABZ A FUCKING GOOD JOB. WITH FUCKING GOOD PAY. FUCKING GOOD BONUS. A HOT BOSS WOULD BE A FUCKING PLUS TOO. NOW FUCK OFF AND LOOK!"
and she also added this as an afterthought:
"Oh u mite also want to add that, if u are a woman:I will only work as ur boss.if u are a HOT guy: I will work as ur anything.
I will need the usual limo,roses and chocolates every afternoon. AFTERNOON bcoz I am NOT going to ruin my beauty sleep and wakeup 7am"

So please people PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY and do Diabz and I a favour.

Also one of my best friends and a classmate want teachers to teach them English, they are both in first year of uni, my best friend is studying English and my classamate wants someone to 8wiy her English and a British accent will be preferable (although I told her that was a dumb shart so she said ok if the have an american one) she also would like it if they came to her house.

No she is not asking for much, bas yallah.

So my dear bloggers (or anyone that is that stumbles across my blog) if u want to, or know anyone that wants to, or anyone that knows anyone that wants to or anyone... u get the picture. Please give me a shout and PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY.

Isabella's pot of basil.

2006-09-10T02:20:00.000-07:00

(this is a famous painting by holman hunt of isabella and her pot of basil, when u fifnish reading the poem u'll understand it, the detail is unbelievable)

This poem is one of my all time favorites, it's called isabella or pot of basil it's a narrative poem, by john keats (who i have a love and hate realtionship with, love: for pot of basil and hate: for writing To Autumn which I was forced to study for my igcse english lit). The story is a beautiful love story about a rich girl who falls in love with one of her workers called Lorenzo. It is a tragic poem, bas i don't wanna mess it up for anyone who would like to read it, I highly recommend it.

***

Fair Isabel, poor simple Isabel!

Lorenzo, a young palmer in Love's eye!
They could not in the self-same mansion dwell
Without some stir of heart, some malady;
They could not sit at meals but feel how well
It soothed each to be the other by;
They could not, sure, beneath the same roof sleep
But to each other dream, and nightly weep.

***

I love this descrption of isabella's brothers. How does each person who reads this understand it and how can they relate to it?

***

With her two brothers this fair lady dwelt,
Enriched from ancestral merchandize,
And for them many a weary hand did swelt
In torched mines and noisy factories,
And many once proud-quiver'd loins did melt
In blood from stinging whip;--with hollow eyes
Many all day in dazzling river stood,

To take the rich-ored driftings of the flood.

***

For them the Ceylon diver held his breath,

And went all naked to the hungry shark;
For them his ears gush'd blood; for them in death
The seal on the cold ice with piteous bark
Lay full of darts; for them alone did seethe
A thousand men in troubles wide and dark:
Half-ignorant, they turn'd an easy wheel,
That set sharp racks at work, to pinch and peel.

***

Why were they proud? Because their marble founts
Gush'd with more pride than do a wretch's tears?--
Why were they proud? Because fair orange-mounts
Were of more soft ascent than lazar stairs?--
Why were they proud? Because red-lin'd accounts
Were richer than the songs of Grecian years?--
Why were they proud? again we ask aloud,

Why in the name of Glory were they proud?

***

I leave each person to understand this poem how the will. As my wonderful english lit teacher Ahsia always told me each person relates to literature differently the only thing that makes it right or wrong is how much evidence u use or lack of it.

So you want respect?

2006-09-05T04:53:00.000-07:00

The audacity of some people will never cease to amaze me. Two days ago, someone's helper turned up on our doorstep with three children. She then asks my mum if she will teach these children English because her madam is asking her to. Her madam asked? Why the hell didn't her madam come her bloody self and ask my mum like any civilized person would have done. Anyway my mum just told her that she was to busy and couldn't. So she goes away and comes back a few minutes later asking if we know someone who could teach them. My mum answers, maybe and she asks how much it would cost. My mum tells her the rate, she then goes and comes back again saying her madam thinks its too expensive and could we ask our friend if she could make it less. Of course my mum tells her she has to sort that out with the person. This is when it starts getting ridiculous: She comes back the next day with the kids saying they have a lesson. My mum wasn't home when she came so my sister talked to them. But the unknown fighter hasn't given up yet, the maid came again a few hours ago claiming that they again have a lesson and that my mum told them to come back 2 days later. Mum isn't here now, so I was just as rude to them as they were to us and didn't even open the door, talked to her through the intercom and told her that my mum wasn't here so she couldn't talk to her. She said she's coming back, 3'9ban 3na ya3ney.

A wake up call to the unknown fighter:

Lady even if we could we wouldn't, this might come as a shock to you but you are supposed to sort out your children's education yourself not your maid, I take it this bit of info will be news to you. Ya3ney u couldn't have the curtsey to came over yourself and ask or even call you know we live in the 21st century, houses have phones. We don't even know who the hell you are we've lived in this neighborhood for a year now and the first time we know of our existence is now. Listen if you want respect you've got to earn it and u certainly haven't fulfilled the requirements. As my dear sister said 'alcohol isn't rampant here, so what's her problem?'

Just so we can click

2006-09-02T00:12:00.000-07:00

Schools a week away and all my class mates are also a week away from starting their new courses at uni. I've been speaking to them and I was kinda surprised by the answers I got.

First maw8if:
Me: Hi, how r u?
Her: I'm fine, and u? (We talk for a while)
Me: So what did you choose in uni?
Her: I'm doing Islamic Studies.
Me: *absolutely flabbergasted* You, Islamic studies.
Her: Yeah, Isn't that cool.
Me: But you said you wanted to do special education, that's why you studied your butt off and got 98%.
Her: Yeah but then, my friends wouldn't go into it with me, I don't wanna be by myself in uni, so they all wanted to do Islamic studies so I did it with them.
Me: But you said no matter what you would never do any more Islamic studies, remember.
Her: Well what can you do, I changed my mind anyway.

Okaaay.

Second maw8if:
Another classmate calls me.
Her: Hi kyhfeek?
Me: Fine what about u? (talk for a while)
Her: I'm going to kuliyat al-banat.
Me: Oh cool where is that?
Her: It's near hokair land.
Me: Why did u choose that one for? I thought you were going to kuliyat al-tarbiya.
Her: No this one is a new building at its really pretty and nice inside, that's why I chose it.

Okaaay

In the end it turned out that kuliyat al-banat is kuliyat al-tarbiya, just a new building that they made for it, but my classmate didn't know that.

Okay, who chooses a uni based on the way it looks and not the better standard. And who does a course that they absolutely hate because their friends chose that one and they wanted to be with them. I love my friends and all, but everyone has got to know when it's time to part ways. We meet up and keep in contact with each other. But going into just say, art or computing because my friend went into it and I wanna be with her is not just a bit crazy it's absolutely mental not to mention extremely childish. It was the click thing that we had in school, the different shilal have to stick together, even though this is a new stage of life, I mean come on isn't uni about making new friends and meeting new people?

not enough choices versus insanity.

2006-08-22T07:08:00.001-07:00

I haven't posted for a while (I've had good reasons ba3d.) This past week I've been reading up on professions. And after much head and heart ache. (my poor dad coming into my room I don't know how many times begging me not to waste his money choosing dumb degrees like cario practitioner and physiology, thanks a lot for putting it so nicely, dad) I decided that occupational therapy was the thing for me ( I mean really decided with 100% percent conviction, not like before, when I was like I wanna do ummmm, that therapy thingy it begins with an O, what's it called again?). I know I'm crazy.

So khalas I was so happy told my mum and everything about the job prospects all the wonderful places I could work in and so on, I was over the moon ( I'm trying to imply just how friggin satisfied I was here, understand before you proceed). Theeen, boom what happens I find out that they only have one uni in London that does it, wtf. To say I was depressed was an understatement. I have good reason to want to go to uni in London.

1. All my sis's uni choices are in London and we wanted to be close to each other, seeing we will be away from our family.

2. Almost everyone I know lives in London, family friends my friends and all.

3. London is just London, it rocks period who would want to go somewhere else when you can live there?

4. I'm from London, I lived my whole former life there, it's my home, where half of my history is. I would like it to carry on being that way, thank you very much.

So now I could only put one uni choice on my UCAS form. I decided that the other would be cardiology, ok cool, not so only one uni in London also, still have four blanks that need filling out. So I chose osteopathy who are also lovingly know as D.O's (yes you guessed it only one uni). Which still leaves three more blanks, so god help in finding something I want to do that will fill them and this time make there be more than one uni in London that offers it. Thank god the other unis can't see what I've chosen they will think I'm a complete luntic, I mean make up your mind for gods sake!

On a complete happier and saner note, I met up with fellow bloggers last week. Wonderful Ash, who is a nice ,sweet and funny as her blog implies (although I was disappointed as she didn't bring her cute daughter) and Jo. Yes people Jo is very nice, wonderfully fun person she is not a bitch and does not hate everyone and whoever got that message from reading her blog needs to go and get a life:S. She also has a wonderful sense in makeup and has me completely converted. I had a wonderful time with them and was time to go home all too soon, it was just so cool to meet with open minded Saudis that I could relate to and I mean properly. Diabz was there too but as she is my forever friend I have nothing new to say about her: p.

Things that make a difference.

2006-08-09T08:30:00.000-07:00

I went to Carrefour yesterday and was pleasantly surprised to find that they have started an 'Aid Lebanon'. It's wonderful you can buy anything you want and then you go to customer's service and tell them this is for Lebanon and they'll find a way to send it to them.

What was pissing me off though was that my mum went into next to change something and I was sitting right outside of Carrefour for like 15 minutes and didn't see one person giving anything to customer's service and it was pretty busy time. Look I don't like to judge people but all those people that were walking out with trolleys full of shopping and couldn't be bothered to buy a blanket and send to those poor stricken people it's just kinda sad. Sad that we can cry, but that we can't do something as easy as pick up a blanket whilst doing our weekly shopping and send it to those same people. They can't feel our tears; our tears won't feed them, but a case of milk or a bag of rice will, that will count.

P.S: Please everyone who reads this post please spread the word and try to go and buy anything you think appropriate it would make such a difference.

Qana Crisis

2006-07-30T07:10:00.000-07:00

I don’t now where to start, this anger that’s keeps on building up every time I switch on the news and see countless bodies being removed from that mess of rubble, most of them children. The death toil is 54 right now, how many of them children I wonder, 37 that’s how many. 37 innocent children have been killed in an air strike, because we can’t stick up for our brothers and sisters because none of the Arab leaders are man enough to say a crap to Israel, or even threaten to do anything about it. The best King Abdullah of Jordan could say was that this was an ‘ugly crime’ how expressive, the Lebanese people really needed that after almost three weeks of saying absolutely nothing, cheers. An Israel really want people to feel sorry for them, some spokeswoman came on CNN and kept on saying how sorry they were and how a complete investigation is going to be held and then what I wonder, what are they going to do when they hit a civilian building, knowing fine well that it was one when they did it.
The CNN journalist put her in her place, telling her that ‘You have bombs that you program where to hit, how did you mange to hit a building filled with women and children’
Her lame excuse ‘We were targeting the Hezbollah rocket base next to it’

54 people in less than a few minutes, that’s more deaths than what Israel, have had in almost three weeks of war. Doesn’t it make you sick and Bush can’t ask for a cease fire until they disarm Hezbollah, well he is going to have a rude awakening cuz like it or not, it is almost impossible to disarm Hezbollah especially after what has happened. Lebanon is Hezbollah or even if it wasn’t it is sure as hell is after what has just happened.

I’m just so frustrated, that I can’t do anything and must just sit here when the people who do have the power to help are just here with there tail in between there legs, for whatever fucked up reason they have. As far as I’m concerned it boils down to being cowards, your are not man enough to say anything so watch innocent people go through all this hurt and pain. The Lebanese people don’t need your half baked sympathy anyway, so yeah stay behind those walls.

My prayers to everyone in Lebanon, ‘Allah help you all, keep you courageous and make you victorious over you enemies, ’ Alahuma Ameen.

The chain tag!

2006-07-25T02:31:00.000-07:00

I was tagged, thanks taq. This tag should get some kind of award, all the saudi bloggers would have got tagged with it by now.

Best:
1. Male friend: It would have to be Raheel.
2. Female friend: Nahool, although we are not really talking right now.
3. Vacation: When i went to Dominica, and my gran spoilt me rotten.

Worst:
1. Time of day: 1 o'clock on week days cuz thats when i start teaching.
2. Day of the week: Saturday.
3. Color crayon: That horrible dark, dark green, ewwwwww

Last:
1. Person you talked to that goes/went to your school: Asma
2. Talked to on the phone: Asma
3. Text: Khadijah
4. Person you instant messaged: Mal.

Today:
1. What are you doing now: Typing and eating idomi.
2. Wearing: Black and white night dress.

Tomorrow:
1. Is:Pay day (Wednesday, end of the month!)
2. Got any plans: Not an ickl idea.
3. Goal: my goal for tomorrow? Finish two chapters in maths.
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: having to work out all those math problems.

Favorite:
1. Number: 3, cuz my cutest little sis has just turned that.
2. Song: Currently: Real love, Be easy, ummmm, listening to loads of Massari, love his songs.
3. Color: Light pink and sky blue, so typical i know.

Currently:
1. Missing Someone: BADLY!
2. Mood: Bad headache also dreading 1 o'clock
3. Wanting: That new camera, and to go shopping.

True/False:
I am a cuddler:Depends really, but yeah more of a cuddler.
I am a morning person: Yeah, I love mornings.
I am a perfectionist: Nah.
I am an only child: Very far from it.
I am currently in my pajamas: Night dress not pj's, but I guess it means the same.
I am currently pregnant: I wish.
I am currently suffering from a broken heart: Nah .
I am left handed: Righty.
I am addicted to Blogging: I'm addicted to reading peoples blogs, does that count?
I am online 24/7: I'm not online alot, 1 of my emails got closed cuz i didn't check it, my mum just won't believe me when I tell her that I'm hardly online, madrey laysh.
I am very shy around the opposite gender: Nah, I feel more comfortable around them, cuz they usually don't have hang ups and are more open.
I can be paranoid at times: Very paranoid, when I'm ready.
I currently have a crush on someone: Kinda,lol, ok yeah i do.
I currently regret something that I have done: To many to think about.
I enjoy country music: I hate it with every fiber of my being
I enjoy talking on the phone: Only when I'm talking to asma or taqo, cuz they usually have good swaleef.
I have a hard time paying attention at school/work: Tell me about it, bio and teaching kidos, test my concentration.
I have a hidden talent: I can write, mo ana, the igcse examiners said so, ahh my greatset pride.
I have a lot to learn: Who doesn't
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal: Nah not really.

Anger:
1. Are you currently mad at someone? Yes.
2. Which of your friends has the worst temper? Mal, cuz she forgives but she sure as hell doesn't forget.
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? Yeah, I fling something at my bros almost everyday.
4. Ever had something thrown at you? Yeah, my mum chucked a plastic cup at me once, it was a long time ago, so I don't remember why, mum's friend told her of though, hahaha.
5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell and scream? Scream my head off, but if it's mum or dad then the stare will have to do, cuz I can't scream at them.

Excitement:
1. Has anyone ever thrown you a surprise party for you? No, but they better, I have told all my mum's friends that when I go to England next year ya wal7oom if they don't, I'm expecting at least 4, any of my friends that read this I hope you've started planning.
2. Are you easily excited? Yeah.
3. What are you most excited about? Going to London next year, yay.
4. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought? I'd go back to sleep.
5. If you could have anything right now what would it be? Some chinese from Canton and a cold 7up,yum.

Self-Discovery:
1. Name: Aya.
2. Where were you born? England, London, St marys hospital.
3. What's your main goal in life? To be a good mother.
4. How do you want to die? In sujood, on friday, odd night of ramadan's last ten, after all my kids are grown.

Opinions:
1. Sex before marriage? Don't agree, but you can understand how some people do.
2. Gay Marriage? Really don't agree, and can't understand it at all.
3. Lower the Drinking age? As I don't drink, kayf7um .
4. Recycling? Of course.

Dreams:
1. What was your latest dream? That I got married in my night dress that i'm wearing right now, lol.
2. Have any of your dreams come true? This is kinda scary but they sometimes do, not important things, but like I dream about somewhere and then we might go to it later, it's kinda freaking me out.
What was the weirdest dream you've ever had? That I had Dorthys red shoes on and the wolf from little red riding hood was chasing me and I hit my feet together and said there is no place like home, and woke up. I had this dream constantly for some time when I was 7.

Love-Life:
1. Straight, Gay, Bi? Straight.
2. Do you have a bf/gf? No.
3. Do you have a crush? Yes, this tennis player that I saw in wimbledon this year, the most hottest guy I've seen, don't even now his name, ya allah, I'm gonna pay much more attention to tennis now.
How many beds did you lay in yesterday? 2.
What color shirt are you wearing? I'm wearing a night dress, but it's black and white.
Name one thing that you do everyday? Talk to my sis for hours, and read.
What color are your walls? Goldish brown.
How much cash do you have on you right now? Madrey can't be bothered to get my wallet, but it will be full in a few days, cuz it's pay day, yesss. Ok I keep on going on about this probably gonna get mugged.
I can't wait till? I go to England and when I get paid.
When was the last time you saw your dad? An hour ago.
What did you have for dinner last night? umm I skipped dinner.
What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone? Black jeans and a green shirt from Nahool cuz I went home with her straight from school and we had to go out.
What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?Saudi blogosphere, its fast becoming an addiction.
Does anything hurt on your body right now? My head is killing, hence 1 o' clock is coming ever closer.

Have You Ever:
1. Have you ever failed a class? Alhamduliallah it's never happened, although that could change with a-levels, tafa2l.
2. Have you ever sung in front of a crowd? Yeah, those school concert thingys.
3. Have you ever not taken a shower for 3 days? Ewww no never.
4. Have you ever slept with a night light? Yeah quite alot.
5. Have you ever danced in the rain? Hasn't everyone, pretending to be on a music video.
6. Have you ever lied? Yes.
7. Have you ever had contacts? Never.
8. Have you ever tripped over something stupid? Yeah, i tripped outside of taqo's house cuz I thought there was one extra stair then there was, infront of her stepdad and my dad, how embarrassing, I was like awwwww limping on my leg, lol.
Pick One:
1. Samosa, Pakora, Kebab: Pakora.
2. Bollywood, Lollywood, Hollywood: Hollywood.
3. Love marriage, Arranged marriage: Love marriage, ofcourse, you have to be weird to choose the other.
4. Honeymoon, no moon: Honeymoon.
5. How many kids would u like 1,2, 3+: 4 kids, have a boy and a girl and adopt a boy and girl, perfect, inshallah.
6. Kulfi, Ice cream: Ice cream
7. Shah ruk khan, Orlando Bloom:Orlando, 6b3an.
8. Meenar-e-Pakistan, Eiffel Tower: Eiffel Tower
9. Lahore, Khi, Islambad: Lahore.

I tag, 3loosh cuz she hasn't been and basboosa cuz she hasn't either.

Here I come!

2006-07-14T00:19:00.000-07:00

I was at Asma's house a couple of weeks ago, and she looks at her mobile and like:
"It's the first of July tommorrow!"
Taqo and I were just like
"Ummm, yeah ok"
Asma : "Less than half a year to go and 2006 is finished"

Which is true, this year went by really quickly for me, and I started thinking baout 2007 and all the reasons why I'm really looking forward and the few reasons why i'm not, my list:

Reasons why:

1. I would have at last finished my A- levels.
2. I'll be going to uni inshallah, back to london.
3. The final HP and Inheritance book's is coming out.
4. The fifth HP movie is also coming out.
5. I'll be independent having to look after myself.
6. I'll be finished with school forever (which in my case has taken a very long time)

Reasons why I'm not looking forward:

1. I'll be leaving my family for the first time and living by myself, which will take some time to get used and will hurt terribly.
2. Gonna miss taqo, asma, and buzz badly, ten years is a long time to be friends with someone.
3. The last Hp book is coming out(go figure)
4. I'm doing As level and A2 level exams in 1 year it's gonna be hard, hard, hard.

My looking forward reasons out weigh my not looking forward reasons, so that should be a good sign, right. So for better or for worse 2007 here I come.

Britaaaaaaaania Rule The Waves!!!

2006-06-21T22:57:00.000-07:00

YES, we did it the top of the group!!!! I was really freaked that England would have to play Germany if they lost the game.

Well done you guys.

If England beat Eucador, and Argentina beat Mexico. Then those two teams meet in the quarter finals, now that is gonna be a match to die for. I still believe that England haven't forgiven them after France 98.

Had to put this,Maradonna was killing me every time it showed him after Angertina had scored in the match against the Serbs,lol.

World Cup!!!

2006-06-18T01:39:00.000-07:00

It's been quite a while since my last post. It's been a busy week, my graduation party, invited out or us inviting in almost every day of the week aaaaand last but not least watching almost every world cup match.

My graduation party was kinda nice, way better than i thought it would be. And none of the girls in my class cried which is a major injaz for us (ok hardly cried, happy taq:p)We stayed in school untill about 4 ordered food and just sat around and messed about.

The world cup is taking so much of my time up. I look at the table of the games and i'm like ok i'm just gonna watch one match most two, and be somewhere in my house sticking to my promise and i just hear my family screaming goal, sub7anallah i find myself in front of the tv and then i'm glued for the rest of the match (minus USA and Itlay yesterday, what the hell was that, booooring i fell asleep.) My favorite matches by far have been England and Trinidad (both sides were excellent, and had good team spirit no and i'm not saying that because i'm british, they were good),angertina and Serbs (lol,6-0 whoop)and ghana and chez (go, go ghana, now that was good football.)

Anyway i'm off, i hope this blog doesn't turn into a briefing of almost every match of the world cup.

whoa!

2006-06-09T12:00:00.000-07:00

That's it i've finished, I thought this day would never come. My school being one of the most the 5yes schools in the world didn't help. Anyways i'm celebrating by sleeping, sleeping and a bit of reading with more sleeping. Will post some more when i've got my energy back.

Stupid Subjects

2006-06-01T09:28:00.000-07:00

I'm studying geography and just so had to get away from it for a while. Just thinking about next week, and I get a headache, it consit of my worst subjects ever. Geography, Maktba (library, don't ask) and adab(lit).

Geography sucks we have a quidzillion maps to learn and all the stupidمظاهر السطح to learn,oof.

Adab this year sucks it's just sooooo boring, last year we took the andalus adab and it was mara nice i actually loved to study for it, even though we were stripped of our individuality as usuall. I'm a great fan of english lit, I enjoyed studying for my igcses and now my a-levels, because it's intresting and there is not only one answer to anything, my teacher always told me "you say whatever you think even if,it sounds completley weird, as long as you can back it up with evidence then your fine."Individuality at it's best people. This adab you have to say exactly what the stupid book says even if you are completley against it and you think the writer/poet is a complete liar and can't write to save his life and to top it all up we have learnt the most boring era الأدب السعودي المعاصر.

And maktaba I could go on for pages and pages about this DISGUSTING subject. I know a man had a hand in it, because no woman in her right mind would subject her fellow sex to such torture (you don't see the boys taking it do you?) What is the god dam point in learning hundreds of dumb books and then the stupid writers idiotic names, I ask you? The stupid sexist, that thought that girls had to take a subject like this should have his limbs severed and then hanged. It is a complete insult to our intelligence to make us learn this filthy thing. I swear I never knew about it or I so would have gone to 3lmey. I bet he is one of those pigs that probably beats up his wife and has no respect for women. Allah la yewf8h.

And so ends my rant, back to studying.

Most girls.

2006-05-31T03:22:00.000-07:00

I never cared too much for love
It was all a bunch of mush
That I just did not want
Paid was the issue of the day
If my girlfriends got some game
Couldn't be more fly
Getting paid was everything
But I'm not every girl
And I don't need that world to validate me
Cause shorty got a job
Shorty got a car
And short can pay your rent
But when I'm dancing baby it's not in my heart

1 - Most girls want a man with the bling-bling
Got my own thing, got the ching-ching
I just want real love
Most girls want a man with the mean green
Don't wanna dance if he can't be
Everything that I dream up
A man that understands real love

And I was some girl about the floss
It was all about the cost
How much he spent on me?
Seek for a man who gots the means
To be giving you diamond rings
It's what every fly girl
Could want or even dream

But I'm not every girl
And I don't need no g to take care of me
Cause shorty got a job
Shorty got a car
And short can pay your rent
But when I'm dancing baby it's not in my heart, no, no

And I'm not every girl
And I don't need no g to take care of me, no
Cause shorty got a job
Shorty got a car
And short can pay your rent
But when I'm dancing baby it's not in my heart, oh most girls

I, I just want just want real love
Said I gotta have real love
Everything, can you be everything I can come up with, oh

Don't ask. This whole week i just keep on finding myself singing this song. What it has to do with 2006, barely any sleep, headaches, stomachaches and messing up in my exams, not to mention a whole week of torture left only god knows.

Pics from last day of school.

2006-05-25T23:25:00.000-07:00

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Here are some pics from our last day of school
No my 6awilah does not always look this messy, but I'm paying homage to my last year at school.

The blanket on my chair is cuz I'm usually cold and bored in class, so I wrap my self up and have a good book to read under my desk, when the lessons are stupid. No, nobody laugh that blanket has saved many a girl from pneumonia, ok I might be exaggerating a little, but most of my class used my blankey, I never had it most of the time (we have a problem our ac is really cold, and we can never agree if we should switch it off or on).

The book Eldest is a new trilogy that I started reading; it's by a boy called Christopher Paoiln (sp). His books are really good and I put it in the a pic cuz I've been really prejudice against him because:

1. His books were so like lord of the rings, you know the elf's, dwarfs all that stuff even the characters names sounded alike (Arya: Arwin, Eragon, Aragon) and I'm a great lotr fan. So I was like he is copying J.R Tolkein (I know ridiculous). There is nothing wrong with expanding on someone's idea and making it better and that is what Christopher has done. For one he has got women fighting and stuff with really good roles. Lotr doesn't have that I don't care what anyone says. In the movie they made Arwin go and bring Frodo to her father, but really in the book she just hangs around being pretty and does nothing. And they was that bit at the end with Eowyn, but it was only once. There are loads of other things to can't be bothered to write it, go and read the thing people.

2. He was also 15 when he wrote the first book, 17 when it was published. And I was like a kid akeed its 5ayes (double ridiculous).

I give the in inheritance series 8/10. They are also making a movie now that should be really good depending on the director.

The apple is because I'm in love with granny smiths I could eat them all day. And the books is tribute to the banes of my life نحو and my A level chemistry.

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This is our class when we come in the morning and it has been cleaned

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And after we have graced it with our presence

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Ummm this cake was so good, and I'm not a fan of cakes. You can't see all our hands but that's my whole class cutting it.

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I had to put this talk about CRAZY, grade 11 completely punked up their class the head mistress was FLIPPING MAD about that. Lol, that is an example of girls who live life on the high ride, don't give a dam about consciences.

Ok now I'm of to study. First exam tommorow pray for me.

6 days...

2006-05-20T22:54:00.000-07:00

...before the exams, I'm not getting anywhere people... someone please HELP ME!!!

last day of school (I am not counting exams, ok)

2006-05-18T22:58:00.001-07:00

I'm back, one wonderful party, one crazy car ride, one cool movie later. Yeah that was the m5ta9r of my day.

The girls in my class and I missed the whole day and came at 11 o'clock for the party like we said we would, the school left us, I mean you can't punish 19 girls can you? We went into class and took pics, of the class and all our 7wsa, which took ages so the party didn't start until about 12:30.

It was really nice, grade 11 did a play making complete fun of us and dafarat thaleth. Which we found hilarious. Played games and all that, then they gave us presents and a really beautiful card which was all about wad3. They bought us a beautiful cake and we took some pics, and sat down to eat.

I said the party was supposed to start at 11, but like always it didn't start until about 12:30, so it finished late. By that time four of my friends needed a lift home so I told them I would drop them home. I had told my poor driver to come at 1 o'clock because that was when the party was supposed to end. But we ended up finishing at 2:15, so to say he was over the moon is an understatement. To make everything better I brought five extra girls in the car with me. So we were not going straight home. To make matters even better when we were about ten minutes away from school one of me friends remembered that she had forgotten her camera in school, so we had to drive all the way back and get it. I could see the smoke coming out of his ears by then.

It was a fun drive for us though we messed around took pictures. It took about 45 minutes to drop everyone home.

By the time I got home I was so tired and was just about to fall into bed but my mum and sister were going to watch kingdom of heaven and I wanted to see it so I sat down with them and watched it, I wasn't disappointed it was really good. I think my next blog post will be a review of it. I never write reviews. That's how much I liked it. Anyway I'm off to study, everyone pray for me that I get past the first 5 pages or better yet I finish at least one manhaj.

Flirting...

2006-05-15T06:51:00.000-07:00

I'm back again after having a good sleep. I was up late last night hence felt like crap in school, but now i've had time to restore my energy i can now bash about something that really pissed me off.

Al maw8ef:

A.H, M.M ,A.A and I were sitting in the class and it was fusha. i don't know how the topic got onto boys and filrting, anyway i was like:
"It happens so much here, the boys don't undersatnd when wa7da ma laha 5l8"
And then A.A was like" no it doesn't really happen here that much, it is just a few of the guys that do it"
I was like "na3m, na3m? that is just such a ridiculous thing to say, it happens alot"
She's like "I'm judging by what i see from my family and myself and none of the boys in my family 3'azel anyone"
Ok now that was just dumb,
Firstly: because she can't look at her family and then say that in6biqs on the whole of ksa. Secondly: cuz even if they did they wouldn't do it when she is there would they? So how would she know.
Anyway this fight was going on and on, A.H and M.M sided with me which was inevitable and A.A was just going on about how i'm exaggerating.
Then she said" I go out and never not once has anyone looked at me and done 7rakat"
I was like "there must be something wrong with you then."
"No it's not that it's just that I i7tarim nafsey when i go out and cover properly"
Oh man i got so pissed off she was trying to imply that i don't dress properly when i go out that's why the poor boys have to 3akes which is complete bull because
1. I do dress properly
and
2. even if i didn't doesn't give them a right to do iz3j wa7da who isn't in the mood.
Good thing the teacher came in and called me then or i would have said something that i would regret later.

Anyway i've been brooding on that for the whole evening and i just keep on getting mad, tell me i'm sensetive, tell me i'm making a big thing over nothing. But what ever you do do not tell me that saudi boys don't flirt alot, i've lived here for 9 years and thats just as dumb as saying the world is flat and we are all gonna fall of the edge if we go to far east.No matter what country your in boys will be boys.

On a happier note the girls in thaney thnawey are having a party for us tomorrow. We all decided not to go to school after today so we can study for our exams, but they got really angry and everything so we are gonna go it should be fun this is what the bi6a8a said on it:

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
من منطلق ارحموا من في الأرض يرحمكم من في السماء" قررنا نحن شلة "الخنافش الخنفشارية"من الصف الثاني ثانوي إقامة حفلة تليق بمقامكم الكريم يوم الثلاثاء الموافق 17\4\1427ه و القصد منها إدخال المرح و السرور و النشاط و الضحك...........الخ غلى نفوسكم استعدادا للاختبارات السعيدة

و شكرا لنا لإقامة حفلة لكم....

So the whole party as they put it is ra7ma not 7ban feyna. But as Buzz said at least they had ra7ma we get presents and a cake بسببه we’re not complaining. Ya layt al dunya kan yer7am kitha it would be a cool thing.
I found it really cute, so we all said we are gonna go at 11 o clock that’s when it starts. The head told us we are not allowed to miss the whole day of school and just come for the party. But no one is listening she threatened saying she won’t let the door man open the door for us, bas were still gonna take the chance. I mean we’ve been so good the whole year lets 6nish someone once. ختامه مسك right.

The beginning

2006-05-14T14:43:00.000-07:00

Hey,

I was surfing the net, with nothing really on my mind and came across the blog of a girl which i found kinda intresting. I was going to start a dairy anyway because strating from now till the end of 2007 i believe are going to be really important times for me in my rather uneventful life. Yeah so that about summs up my first eventful post.

checking out.

ace